Saturday, December 31, 2005
Coming to an end of the year again. This year seems to pass exceptionally fast. This is neither a good nor bad year for me. Had my share of ups and downs. Well, this is what life is all about isn't it...
Since a New Year is officially arriving in less than 24 hours...I shall reflect upon what I have done this year and make New Year Resolutions to change for the better in the next year!
REFLECTION:
1) This year, I learnt that life has 2 extremes to it. It can be EXTREMELY ENJOYABLE. And it can be EXTREMELY TORTUROUS. Under some circumstances, you have no choice and God just drop you into either of these situations. Under other circumstances, you have a choice as to which route you choose - although it might be difficult choosing it.
Firstly, I'd like to thank God (Err...I'm not Christian hor...But I'll just make this a general term irregardless of religions) for giving me happy moments, for I truly enjoy it. Thank you SO MUCH. I'd also like to thank God again for giving me periods of sadness, for it is having been thru these down times that I have learnt valuable lessons about life. It has trained me to become a tougher and more independent girl. Thank you for helping me become what I am today.
Having been thru the 2 different circumstances mentioned in the 1st paragraph - having or not having a choice, (wow, sound like a comprehension passage right? hmm...) I think I had allowed myself to fall into the wrong 'hole' far too often under the 2nd situation. Not just this year, but ALWAYS. Meaning, when I have the choice, I still took the wrong path.
RESOLUTION:
Therefore, in Year 2006, I aim to become a more clear-headed person. THINK before I do or speak. I had never regretted any of my choices before, but this time round, I must also make sure all my choices in the coming year are the right ones.
REFLECTION:
2) I always live life with some principles, and one of them is: "For People who treat me well, I will repay them with DOUBLE the kindness . For People who treat me bad, I will make sure they suffer DOUBLE of what I did."
To a certain extent, I did live by this principle. But sometimes, I'm too soft-hearted to exercise the 'BAD' part. This is my weakness. My mum had always told me since young that I'm too soft-hearted and being that will only put me in an extreme disadvantage. I agree.
On the other hand, I didn't really exercise the 'GOOD' part either. Especially towards my family. My family is the one thing that I treasure and love most in my entire life. Noone and Nothing can ever ever surpass them in my heart. I always believe that anyone, I really mean ANYONE, can betray my trust. Friends, Boyfriends, Husbands, My Children etc might betray me. At the end of the day, the only one who would never ever betray me and will always stand by my side will be my family. I LOVE THEM!
RESOLUTION:
So, for Year 2006, I aspire to be someone who is more hard-hearted. To not give in to people so easily the minute they treat me well. I must always keep in mind how they had treated me in the past. IT"S PAYBACK TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Of course, I must also treat nice people around me, especially my family, better in the coming year. I'm so blessed to have them. Thank you!!!!
REFLECTION:
3) I think I really spent too much money. I'm such a spendthrift. Heng said to me: "Sometimes, you look like a rich, spoilt bitch to me..." and he proceeded to change my name in his phonebook to 'Tai Tai Xian'. Some other friends changed my name in their phonebook to 'Princess Elyse' etc.
I bought 3 branded bags this year. 2 Gucci, 1 LV. "Nothing much mah", you all might say. Eh, but please keep in mind that I'm still a student with income of less than $1000 per month hor.
And now that I think of it...I'm still aiming for a Balenciaga Motorcycle bag and a Chloe Paddington bag. OMG!
RESOLUTION:
Although I love branded bags, I think I really need to keep it under control. Maybe one branded bag a year, for Chinese New Year? Ok, the most the most two okay? And that's when I feel really rich. Hmmm...although hard, but I must really try to keep to this particular resolution...
REFLECTION:
4) I had cried too much this year. I hate crying. I hate the swollen eyes I get the next morning. I hate the vulnerable feeling. I HATE IT!!!!!!
RESOLUTION:
Simple. I MUST TRY NOT TO CRY IN YEAR 2006. Year 2006 will be a happy year for me!
REFLECTION:
5) This year, I had started thinking about how I would like my future life to be like. I already had a perfect picture of it. But it's all action but no talk. I procrastinate too much.
Someone said to me recently that I tend to drag things on and on, and that's why I need to be constantly pushed. i guess that's somehow true.
RESOLUTION:
I must really get into the 'action' part of the plans in Year 2006. I have opportunities that others might not have, so I should already be considered lucky.
Also, I need to start SAVING MORE and SPENDING LESS. This is for the good of my future. This would in turn mean that I have to go out less and stay at home more. Less shopping, Less clubbing.
All in all, I hope next year will be a good year for me, my family and all my friends. May everyone be happy and stay healthy!!!
They say being reincarnated as human-beings is a punishment by God. But I love my life so much and would not give it up for anything. And if there is a next life, I'd choose to be human again.
May all my wishes come true in 2006!
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