Friday, July 08, 2005
I'm not sad because there's nothing for me to be sad about.
I'm not happy because there's nothing for me to be happy about.
Then what am I?? S-Appy??
Sian leh...human-beings are always like that. Nothing to think about then try to think too much...create problems.
Logically thinking, my life now is quite problem-free: Having my hols now, just got my 'dream job' (heehee, happy!), waiting for school to reopen (coz i love school, in case some of u don't know that). As you can definitely see, although not a very interesting life, but nothing to complain about also what.
Sigh...PRECISELY!!!
But coz recently i think i'm too nice a person already, go and help people. FYI, i hate helping people coz i do not believe a good deed done will return two times back to me - Is that how they say it BTW?? Anyway, let's not diversify...Then i absolutely regret it, dunno why also, coz the person i help ok what, nothing bad about him/her mah. It's just a feeling loh. This happened in my poly days also. Got this person i really dun like, and for 2 long years i really dun understand why i don't like him/her leh coz he/she seem so nice, helpful etc etc etc. I even feel abit guilty for 'misjudging' him/her. Then in my last year, HAHAHA, fnally saw his/her trueself. My intuition are so accurate! *smirk* This time the feeling also the same loh. But this time, this person seem even nicer than my poly one loh. But nevertheless, i trust my intuition. Sigh, history is repeating itself. It's a vicious cycle.
Been regretting for a few days now leh...I usually hate helping people and now I've helped someone whom i think is a 'not-so-nice' person although cannot see the 'not-so-nice' factor in him/her, can you all imagine how i feel??!!! hahaha sorry, abit exaggerated...especially since a few of my friends are all trying to struggle thru turmoil times now.
To all my struggling friends, I sincerely apologise...Will definitely be here for u all if u all need help...
p/s: Hope that my good deed done will bring me good luck to strike 4D, Toto and win all soccer bets in the years to come...'Amen'...
Elyse bitching @ 7:37 PM | comment
